Life got crazy and of course the blog takes a back seat, but I do miss writing and sharing so I am trying to get back into the swing again this week.
The past few weeks have been filled with our normal homeschool, gymnastics and baseball practices, riding lessons, mixed with a traveling husband/dad, design work and community service.
What I found through the craziness was my breaking point.
It was a really hard day, but I added things to my to-do list that I shouldn’t have added and it became a disaster. By the time the kids went to bed, I was tired, cranky and I still had things to get done.
Not a good combination to begin with, but then of course nothing went smoothly.
Sugar Plum refused to sleep and was in and out of her room until late into the night. The site I was trying to upload design work to was not cooperating and I was downright tired from the long day.
It wasn’t long before my frustration and anger were beginning to show. I soon closed my computer and finally got Sugar Plum to sleep. Shortly after laying in bed, the tears began to fall. I was a mess.
After a bit, prayers came more easily, I stopped feeling sorry for myself and began to look at the circumstances of the day and how it all played to end in the restless evening.
Sometimes it takes a breaking point to really see how we are overloading ourselves. I was not able to be everyone I wanted to be that day, and my top priorities ended up getting the worst of me, instead of my best.
Since that night, I have tried to make sure my priorities stay aligned. That I am putting less on my plate so that I can do it all well.
I have always struggled to say “no” to things, but I realize as my normal day to day gets crazier, I have to learn to take a step back and see what is actually necessary and what I can say “no” to, or “not right now”.
It’s a daily struggle but one I have to take if I am going to be a good mom and wife, and those are my top priorities.
So far seeing things in a new light and having had an eye-opening moment has helped significantly. Hopefully, I can keep it up.